Sunday, September 26, 2004

dunno wad happened to everyone.. things are jus screwed up..

felt somethin tat i shouldnt.. i shouldnt have doubted.. but i couldnt control thinkin about it.. its jus so disturbin.. hope everythin isnt wad i thought it was.. really dun wish to see it happenin tat way.. prove me wrong.. pls..

haiz.. hate this feelin.. feelin of emptiness.. oh man.. wad is goin on?

couldnt cry cos my tears are dried up.. nth will change even if i cry a river.. it hurts but i'm jus too numb.. too numb and tired to face these shits.. but jus couldnt help but think about it.. funny? yeah i tot so too.. couldnt possibly wash my hands off everythin.. cos its unfair to some ppl.. but when i tried to put in effort jus to make things right.. the outcome wasnt somethin i wan at all! so wad should i do? haha.. so funny....

breakin' down soon.. couldnt imagine wad'll happen if somethin GREAT comes next.. i'm prepared.. i'm waitin.. gonna let it crushes me when it attacks.. i'm too tired.. mentally n physically.. to fight against it.. felt so weak.. so so so helpless.. let me be free...

can u promise to be there for me? i reali need somebody to listen to my nonsense...

Posted by lilian at 3:49 PM